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Kathy’s Story
In her own words...
“I will never forget that day. I was nervous, alone and battling with myself. ‘I can’t have a baby! I barely get by paying my bills! How will I ever afford a baby?’ So many thoughts rushed through my head the first three months of my pregnancy which I kept secret. I was so angry with myself. “I haven’t finished school! My parents are going to freak out!” So through the “advice” of my “best friend” I set up an appointment to have an abortion. I read the information provided online about it; it didn’t sound so bad. I thought I could just do it and move on with my life and try to forget. “Your appointment will be at 8 am, do you know how to get here?” I said “yes” and quickly hung up the phone. “I did it, the first step…then this will be all over”.
The day came all too fast, I arrived but…something was wrong. There was no one there! What is going on?" I decided to wait outside until someone showed up and an hour later I entered I was confused, why wasn’t anyone here? My appointment was a while ago? The kind lady at the front desk did her best to calm me down “I’m afraid you are at the wrong clinic” she said; however I stayed to speak with their staff. “Have you had an ultrasound yet?” “No”, I answered. “That would be the first step, we need to see your gestational age”. I agreed, not knowing what to expect. The warm jelly was put on my belly and the foggy images appeared on the screen. “There, that’s your baby, he seems to be just ten weeks old”. A flood of emotions rushed through my body, I smiled and I was crying…I saw it wiggle in such a way that it touched my heart and It suddenly hit me, how real this all is…I have a little baby, in my belly, the size of a peanut but already has a little body…so cute and completely innocent.
They handed me a little gold pin, it had little feet on it and it read “The actual size and shape of a ten week old baby”. I then sat with a wonderful woman who told me her story of her past abortion and how it affected her in ways that online searching can’t describe. After listening to her and reading the pamphlets on the actual abortion procedures including the pill (which I thought would be the easiest), I realized the cruelty and how it would impact me emotionally. I could never in a million years bare to think of flushing my baby down the toilet. She gave me my options, but reassured me that they were there to help me along the way and that they have resources to help me. It was like a gift from GOD. For the first time I realized, “It’s okay. I can do it, and there is help.” I had such a sense of relief and I was so happy that I did it happened this way.
If it wasn’t for the Alpha Center I wouldn’t be as happy as I am today. They all had such a tremendous impact in my life and the way that I see and feel about others now. I believe in the good of people and the love that a complete stranger can give. I believe that there is always a way. Sure, I don’t have the same friends anymore, and the job that I thought was so great wasn’t there for me when I needed them either, but none of that matters now because I know have better friends, a better job that is flexible with my life as a mom and most importantly I have the pleasure of having someone to love so much more than I could have ever imagined.”
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